So this time last year I was in the Dominican Republic...now here in Baltimore, Maryland my heart is far from me, in another land. I would give up so much to gain such an experience again. I have traveled to many different places and want to keep experiencing what others have to give. Maybe my desires stem from my dislike in the order of my day to day routine, who knows. All I know is that my heart is with the nations, including my very own. My heart definitely grieves for those who lack and are ignorant to the wonders God can provide. Its a difficult world we live in, and living in a country given so much yet so poor in heart is hard. The people in other countries may be poor, but they are rich in heart. It's so refreshing, helps bring myself in perspective. I believe as a christian we need this little wake up call to show us how truly blessed we are. I know I need this every so often.

the wow of life

So today I'm getting gas at the gas station, mind you I don't live in the best area and the gas station was by my house, and a guy with a baby in the stroller walks up to me. I was thinking in my head "is he really walking toward me or just past my car?" and sure enough he walks right up to me baby and all and asks me if I was married. Now I am not married nor am I in any kind of romantic relationship but I do not want anything to do with this man, so I tell him I'm engaged, and from there he mumbles "well he's a very lucky man." At this point he turns and walks away. So as I get in my car my two new baby kittens are crying and I'm thinking about how barrizze it is to have a married man come up to me with his child (totally disrespecting his vows and the promises he made) . Things like this cause me to feel so burdened by people in this world today. I think back to the little baby he had pushing around and to think that he wouldnt want to do everything in his power to protect her and give her a life he never had; a better life. I just got two little baby kittens, I mean tiny things only about 6 weeks old and I feel so burdened to make them feel safe I pray over them all the time. I love them so much and will do anything to make them happy and feel safe and loved. I feel changed now that I am a mother in some sense, and these are only cats! How more would I feel more another human being. How far off have we become as beings. But I sit here and think about the scripture that says "God is love" that is so true the greatest love ever stems from him so the more of him that is in us the more we are able to love.